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My apologies for such a long break...
Well, the hair has grown too long on his face and now Michael cuts it (good, because it began to look funky and patched). It's really cool that he looks more and more like a guy. The face is structurally changing. The hair grows. Actually, the hair migrates from the head to the face, because Michael cuts his head hair really short... Don't ask me if I like it :-P
Transition for me seems to flow smoothly. Things are naturally falling into place. I'm feeling more comfortable, especially because he wears a binder and no one confuses Michael's sex anymore. He can freely go to men's bathroom and I don't have to accompany him to the women's to give support. 
I'm more willing to talk about Michael to my friends, because I talk about him as if he's my boyfriend (which he is). I feel so much better, because I do want to share so many things with others about Michael. However, I'm not at a place, where I can comfortably announce Michael's history. I don't want to skew their perception of Michael, because it's totally unnecessary. I guess I can consider myself being in the closet. It's interesting how I can understand the coming-out issue, while still being heterosexual. Even though I have my struggles, which will probably never go away, I'm still grateful for such an opportunity, because I have tasted some of the struggles that LGBT individuals face.
Lately, I have encountered pressure from outside to have "normal" relationship and "normal" future (e.g., boyfriend with a penis, who can deliver his sperm to make babies in my stomach). Even though I'm aware of the impossibility of having these "normal" aspects of life and I don't feel too psyched about it, I weigh my priorities. However, it's annoying to hear the same thing over and over. I have too great of a relationship to trade this for another male with sperm, even though ideally it'd be great to produce a baby. Maybe.
 
 
Yesterday! First hair right around the chin! It's patches, but I still screamed as if I saw a huge birthday cake! I can't imagine what happens in a month or two? I hope that the patches will go away, otherwise it's gonna look really funny :-)
 
 
David's been isolating and irritable about way too many things, from morning until night, every day. I feel like whatever I do and say, or don't do or say, is wrong. Whether it's hormones or something else, it doesn't matter. At times, I just want to go away for a while...
 
 
I'm still waiting for that hair to show up. It hasn't shown up yet, so I keep asking, "When are you gonna get your hair?" Maybe I'm becoming annoying with that, but I just want to see the changes sooner. I know that it takes many months for all the changes to occur, but part of me is impatient and wants things to go faster... grrr... :-)
 
 
Well, here my journey begins. While I was gone, I created a picture in my mind about David's hairy face, even though I knew that it'd take time for him to grow facial hair. When I came back home, I asked "When is your hair gonna grow?" Clearly, I'm impatient. I just want to see changes already! I wanna see how the face changes, how hair grows, how fat gets redistributed, and all that stuff. Oh, and the voice is supposed to get lower too.
I don't want to attribute everything to testosterone, but lately I've noticed more frequent attitude issues, such as higher irritation or abrupt statements. Maybe it's just stress, I don't know. But, I'm gonna monitor this and later give feedback about what I notice, because he needs to keep it in check.
 

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    First, the biggest reason for my excitement of David's transitioning is that he's one of the most wonderful human beings, who deserves to be happy. The second big reason is my identification as a straight female, which I think is important for readers to know, because it might aid in their understanding about the way I perceive David's journey. 
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