Well, the hair has grown too long on his face and now Michael cuts it (good, because it began to look funky and patched). It's really cool that he looks more and more like a guy. The face is structurally changing. The hair grows. Actually, the hair migrates from the head to the face, because Michael cuts his head hair really short... Don't ask me if I like it :-P
Transition for me seems to flow smoothly. Things are naturally falling into place. I'm feeling more comfortable, especially because he wears a binder and no one confuses Michael's sex anymore. He can freely go to men's bathroom and I don't have to accompany him to the women's to give support.
I'm more willing to talk about Michael to my friends, because I talk about him as if he's my boyfriend (which he is). I feel so much better, because I do want to share so many things with others about Michael. However, I'm not at a place, where I can comfortably announce Michael's history. I don't want to skew their perception of Michael, because it's totally unnecessary. I guess I can consider myself being in the closet. It's interesting how I can understand the coming-out issue, while still being heterosexual. Even though I have my struggles, which will probably never go away, I'm still grateful for such an opportunity, because I have tasted some of the struggles that LGBT individuals face.
Lately, I have encountered pressure from outside to have "normal" relationship and "normal" future (e.g., boyfriend with a penis, who can deliver his sperm to make babies in my stomach). Even though I'm aware of the impossibility of having these "normal" aspects of life and I don't feel too psyched about it, I weigh my priorities. However, it's annoying to hear the same thing over and over. I have too great of a relationship to trade this for another male with sperm, even though ideally it'd be great to produce a baby. Maybe.
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